Hello again! Look at me trying to be consistent with my posting. *Pats back with pride*
So what’s with this title, you may be asking? Well, as part of my New Year’s resolutions, I made a pact with myself to take more photos and videos. Whether it was selfies, food, drinks, adventures, whatever…I wanted to capture more of my life for myself. Now, could it potentially have a positive impact on creating content for my business? Yes, sure. I’m becoming more comfortable in front of the camera, and BAM, more video content.
But, honestly, this is more about self-love and self-care. Are you one of those people who look at a photo of themselves and only see the negatives? I mean, there is absolutely nothing positive. OK, well, I’m guilty of that.
I’ll say things like:
- Look at that double chin
- My face is so round it could be used as a globe
- My arms are so flappy I could fly
- Who does she even think she is, thinking she can pull this outfit off
…and so on.
It’s a terrible habit I’ve been trying to shake for decades, but this year I’m committed to working on it. So, to ease myself into this, I’ve started taking a selfie a day and writing down at least one thing I like about myself in the photo. And yes, most of my comments so far have been about my eyes or my teeth (thank you to my orthodontist!), but then yesterday I posted a photo, and I actually uttered the words, “Oh, I look cute! I’m going to post this!”
Now, people post selfies all the time, I know that. But this time was different. There was a comment that kept coming up under my photo, and people just texted me to say, “Girl, you’re glowing!”
I’ve never considered myself a “glowing” girl before, unless I’m sweating, and then that’s just not really that pretty; it’s more an icky mess, hahaha.
As I looked closer at the picture, I couldn’t recognize this woman. Yes, I know it’s me. But there was something she was exuding from within. She seems more confident in herself, both inside and out.
I even said it in my caption, Today is a good day. One where I feel mentally clear, emotionally fulfilled, and physically in good pain from starting my gym adventures!”
But what changed? What changed after seven days that made me feel more comfortable sharing? I mean, yes, my hair was finally on point, but it was more than this. I finally started looking past the “nice eyes” and the “orthodontic smile” and saw a fighter. A survivor. Someone who loves with all of her heart and soul. Someone has been through hell and back and survived to tell the tale.
The idea of focusing on my double chin (I mean, she’s still there, just I don’t care) or other trivial things just when away. I actually saw the woman I had fought to be and continue to fight to be. Is she perfect? Fuck no!
But she’s me. I’m her. And I’m finally becoming comfortable in my skin. That’s where the glow is coming from. I promise, it’s not any type of makeup because I’m terrible with that stuff. This is just, well, self-confidence. Giving myself the opportunity to love myself for who and what I am.
OK, that’s it for the sappiness. Thank you to everyone who commented or messaged me about the photo. It meant a lot to me. And I really hope this glow continues!
Until next time…
